"I lived five years bearing the guilt thinking I had killed the only woman I could ever love," he speaks the words and knows them to be true, but knows it is more complicated than that. "And I hated her as much as I loved her. I do not know what she does now, why she does them, or why she would deceive me." He fears she has done much to harm him, has plotted against him.

"I thought her to be a ghost. Instead, she is merely a devil."